Fucking primal and maternal instincts

So I'm Having weird primal urges to reproduce i know it's no the right time and i really don't want anything like that coming out of me anytime soon. Plus i'm really happy as to where my relationship with Ryan is and feel that anything like that would fuck it over hard therefore leaving me as unhappy as a penguin is the desert. So fuck this kid shit, their cute as hell sometimes and love you know matter what but i'll get over it. I'll just spend my time and money spoiling my friend Chandra's kid anyone else have a little on they want me to spoil. Not in a wierd way....shit anyway you say it it sounds wrong.


I'm thinking all this will blow over when me and Ryan finally move in together. It's kind of like my mind trying to screw me over making me feel like i'm going no were trapped in my parents' house that i'm not a grown up becasue as of late i'm not supporting myself. Deep shit like that. Lets get something strat to all you blog readers out there i'm horribly pig headed and independent as hell. There for me living in my parents house for about a year has killed my mind making me seminally want to reproduce to make me feel more adult that would be what my heart is telling me, but thankfuly i have a big but good head on my shoulders. So i have decided to set out and write it all down therefore getting this insane idea of reproduction off of my fucking head. So that i can go back to my depression less thought force and life. But i swear to god if i dont have a kid by my 27th birthday i will end anyone and everyone. Fucking primal and maternal instincts.

And if any of you people, you know who you are, tell my boyfriend, who i'm hoping doesn't read this and overreact, i will end you and you know i can....

On another note completely i bring you this blog via my sisters laptop since mine burnt out on me and was sent to ther far off repair shop of the out of business Circuit City. No idea when i'm getting it back so.....


Pissed off for eternity


Hamster out....

why is she spared?

So whoever watches the news should know about the Miss California controversy I first heard about the gay marriage controversy then the whole plastic surgery and racy picks after that.


I don’t get how when it comes to things like racism and sexism that people get bet in the street or a majority of people believe that you are uneducated and stupid for being the least bet racist. Sure there is a fraction, a very small fraction, of people that would support you say if you didn’t particularly like Mexicans like me but more often than not you get people always judging you thinking that you’re the worst person in the world for having a set dislike against a culture and its people. Don’t get me wrong I don’t hate every Mexican in the world and I don’t pass judgment on people before I get to know them but I tend to dislike Mexicans more than any other people.

But the fact that Miss California can perform in a national contest to be the best person to represent America and go on national TV saying the things she said about gay marriage being such a horrible thing and not have any of the allegations and hatred that people that are just the same as her but racist is bull. She is just as close minded, uneducated, cold hearted, and stupid as we are she just has a pretty little face to cover up her ugliness.

So I don’t get it when does religion win over peoples own life experiences I’m racist because I’ve been treated badly and have had really bad experiences with a majority of that race. Where as she is against gay marriage because she was told not by the bible but by the representation and transition people have perceived from it. She isn’t thinking on her own she is being influenced she hasn’t had any bad experiences with gays she just hates them because she is told to. Know who is stupid or uneducated me or her? All I want to see is some consequences for her actions. We do have the freedom of speech but she needs to think for herself before she speaks. She has broken many of the rule, has been in so many controversies and yet just because she is pretty she is spared. Yes life is unfair but more so for the “ugly” people. And one more note to this if she believes so whole heartedly in her cause her religion why did she take such racy pictures in the first place?



Why is she spared?


Think for yourself


Believe in yourself



Hamster out….

F*#$ Wolverine Origins and this Hollywood bullshit

Warning A lot of cursing yes I curse when I’m mad my brain cant think when I'm so very mad, so it comes out bad blogging English and cursing. Deal with it.

Another note Deadpool is number two on my top comic book hero’s list.

Some beautiful person leaked out the Wolverine Origins movie online a couple of days ago and another wonderful person downloaded it for us to watch. Yes the special effects weren’t added, some of the dialogue was missing, and something’s didn’t match up right but damn it was awesome a really great movie….yea right IT SUCKED… well mostly the ending but that pulled down the whole movie for me.

My note to you if you ever go see this movie in theaters is just walk out about a half hour before the movie ends you just don’t need to see it at all it’s completely pointless. For any real fan of any Wolverine movie comic fan fic whatever it SUCKS this movie was only worth a illegal down load man if I could curse out and burn the house down of the person that screwed this movie up I would I would go to jail for justice for this movie a real slap in the face to all comic book fans. It wasn’t just wolverine that pissed me off even thou they really did screw things up for him and messed everything up for this being any type of prequel to the X-man movies… god it was just errr..all screwed up .

The major thing that took it way too far and pissed me off to the point of criminal intent was Deadpool ow those tricky little bustards made him perfect in the beginning a smart ass mercenary that never shut his mouth with mad ass Katana skills that just wanted to have fun. Perfect little Ryan Reynolds shirtless deflecting bullets with his two trusty Katana’s, it was almost orgasmic, don’t tell Ryan. Man how the movie should have ended that way. But NO they had to go screw with it totally screw with it like WTF were you people thinking did you ever read comics at all you jack asses. Do you even know who DEADPOOL is man if he was as real as he thinks he is, he would jump that fourth wall and kick your asses, your mothers asses, and your god damn dead grandmothers asses. Fucking lazer vision, flitting, Katana fist assholes. Breath Hammy breath….

Kick ass Deadpool Vs Lazer vision deadpool

Ok I’m good I think sorry about that.

So if you want to lose total faith in the Hollywood comic book reproductions, like me, go ahead and see this but if you are a true lover of comics do your kind good and download it. That’s all that’s it deserves. The lack of special effects was the only thing that got any of us through that horrendous last half hour. Go ahead see for yourself you’re going to have to anyway to get the facts to rage against and to see for yourself just how HORRIBLE THE WOLVERINE ORGINIS MOVIE WAS. I’ll pray for your sanity and hope you don’t kill anyone on your way out of the movie. I can see the headlines now “Terror in twinkle town as comic book fans valiantly protest against the Wolverine Origins movie, with lightsabers in hand”. Just don’t see it opening night it’s not worth the hour or so wait in line fuck it.

Fucking Hollywood

Hamster out….

Getting all f*&%ing sentimental

So since I can’t sleep for some god knows what resign, personal crazyness I guess, I think I will blog which I have not done in a long while. I’m in the Tri-cities……still….yes I know but have plans to move sooner or later which brings hope to my day to day world. Ryan and I are doing well, kind of great actually giving me hope yet again. I have even made a good couple of friends in the Tri-cities finally right, thank you social awkwardness of being a geek, and that gives me hope to. A lot of hope going around these days, enough to share with me goodie.

Let’s see what’s new….. a good lot really, I quite the Octopus’ Garden for good….again personal crazyness considering that was one of the most fun and easy jobs that I have ever had and I am working at another retail store know.

God it’s been forever since I last blogged curse you real life…. I really don’t feel like making a clip notes version of the past 6 months….damn I’ll make it short.

Summer:

Went to the cost on a trip with my sister

Visited Portland and Heather on the way

Feel in love with the ocean

Played a butt load of board games

Was interdicted to Dr. Horrible, google, great stuff

Worked a lotttttttttt……hint no blogging


Fall:

Was a pretty rocking cow for Halloween

Work…………….


Winter:

Had way to much alcohol

Watched a drag show during a blizzard

In the Tri-cities

Weird ...

Got driven home by the DD me still drunk in a blizzard

Had fun driving in the snow again

I love the snow

Had fun watching Tri-citizens try and drive in the snow

Had a pretty rough Christmas

Good New Year’s though

Met Chandra and Beefy

Those are good people

Got a Xbox 360

Routed away playing video games

Good times

Had way to much Tattoo

More work I hate Christmas in retail



These last few weeks:

More video games

Was really tempted to buy a $1,200 Shiba Inu puppy

Went to Portland for a day

Saw Heather for a bit

Had fun with a baby

Not mine

Hint the having fun

Got a new job

Hate it of course

Started getting in shape

Then stopped

Better choice

Finally excepted that I was in madly in love with Ryan and that I can’t do anything about it
thank god

That was the peak of these last few months …..



I’m only going to say this once considering that I’m not a religious person by any means. Whoever it is up there be it God, Buddha, Zeus, Sprits, or the many other….Thank you for all that I have received.

Since my new job actually allows me personal time I think this will become again the coolest blog ever right…….yea that what I thought… : ( O well I love blogging.

Catch you later


Hamster out....

Somebody's Bad Luck

You guys should all go and check out this new blog the me and my friends put together so that we could still work on our WRP even though were all like 200 miles away from each other. It should be pretty cool once everyone gets use to the lay of the land. Briyr bio is already up and the others should be in soon i hope you guys check it out and like it.

ow yea the WRP is about a teenage female superhero team in the dc universe there some really cool twists and turns in the layout and comic.

Hamster out....

I’m back with a vengeance.

I know this happens everywhere in the world that is brought onto us today but man did this one bug the shit out of me.

I’m checking out at our local grocery store today and what do I see sitting in the magazine stand a article that practically yells “hey your sixteen lets go get pregnant, it will be great, everything will be perfect”

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WTF

wow I’m really rusty on writing well here goes it.

Me vs. Jamie Lynn Spears



Who in their right mind would thinks it’s ok for a sixteen/ fifteen year old girl to get pregnant. I mean crist I couldn’t tell you if I even liked boys at that age let alone stupid enough to get pregnant by one. But that’s not the thing that really gets me I had a lot of the girls in my school, in my class of 85 get pregnant at ages you should be worrying about your complexion and if your popular, not sex or having a baby and taking care of yourself and a very squishy fragile thing like a baby.



No I know that is part of our world today what bugs me is that all these magazines, internet pages, news organizations, there all promoting it saying it’s ok. I saw the OK magazine while checking out, read the title and about puked then I made the mistake of looking at the article, come on what do you think when you see those photograph let alone the questions and answers you were getting in the so called article which was only a soft peace saying maybe she didn’t screw up ( she is freaking sixteen and has a kid, major screw up), see she is ok, something horribly made up and over calculated like that.



In the interview they ask all the soft questions like how was it to hold your child for the first time, not anything real like how much pain where you in or how high were you when you first saw your child. All I see these things as are promotional pieces on how perfect it is to be a mother and how perfect your life well be when you become one does anybody not realize that this girl is only sixteen years old sixteen she hasn’t graduated for high school yet and she has to deal with a screaming baby all the time. Well I should correct that her, her mother, her boy friend (who you can tell really doesn’t want to be there) and the three or four nannies that they are going to hire to help. Nobody is ready to have a kid let alone ready at the age of sixteen.



Let me tell you it’s not perfect nothing is perfect especially not child birth and children sure I don’t have kids but I work with them a lot. They scream, poop, cry, smell all the time you hate them for a while you love them but hate them. You can never get a full night’s sleep never have the life that you had back again and I mean never everything you do has to either deal with the kid or you have to think of the kid when you do it. If nothing else she should have learned from her sister that this was not perfect. Seriously this sixteen year old girl says perfect more than seven times, gave up counting after that, the delivery went perfect, the pregnancy went perfect, bla blab lba all LIES…



Ok so this is not a(total) personal attack on Jamie Lynn, no, I think she can handed the biggest mistake that she has ever made and will ever make. She has money which helps a lot like a lot a lot, she has a weird probably drugged up mother that doesn’t seem to set any boundaries or morels into the children that she raises. But whatever it’s their life I’m sure they can get through it and live a very messed up happily ever after.



What I’m really upset about is the fact that she is promoting the end of childhood as anyone knows it that there are stupid enough girls out there thinking well look at Jamie Lynn she’s doing ok so I can do it too. We all know that there are kids out there that haven’t been brought up in the best way and think that this is a good way to escape, to get attention, or a way for them not to ever be alone. Even a way to some really messed up people to be cool. Well it’s not and the only thing that I can hope for is that there aren’t as many of these stupid teenagers as I think there is. Come on its not only your life you are potently ruining forever it’s a helpless child’s too. I already have anger issues against mothers who don’t treat or care for their children well. I’m scared shitless for the future world where we right off childhood all together, were is socially ok for a sixteen fifteen seventeen even eighteen year old to get pregnant out of stupidity.
And you know what else I had to buy this god damn magazine to read the actual and write this which just goes right back to the OK magazine people saying that its getting bought so it’s ok fucking people. Now if you will excuse me I have to go burn this lousy mag ( which I will never ever by again if I actually bout these things on a regular bases) and I think I must wash my mouth and eyes out with soap and maybe write some insulting things to people responsible for this atrociousness

could it really be true…..could the curse really be lifted

Photographs taken by Chris Thompson

Chris Tompson Photography
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So I’m graduated well it’s almost official I haven’t gotten my diploma yet because they mail them to you but I put the cap and gowned on and walked across the stage green Chucks and all.

I love my geeky tendencies we had blue, almost bright blue gowneds and I couldn’t resist wearing my green chucks. And since this was a college graduation we were allowed to be free I guess you would call it as in it wasn’t as stuffy and formal as high school graduation we could ever write on our caps which me and heather both took as on opportunity to show everyone there that yes we are geeks. She wrote Bamph on hers and I wrote Thwip on mine. And if you don’t get what that means then it’s your own loss.

So graduation was fun I was right after heather, we kind of confused the announcer in the fact that he had to say Heather Etherton…Heather Freeman without doing a double take and thinking that he was repeating himself. And she waited for me after we got off stage we herd our professor yell congratulations Heathers.

After that I had family and such over at my apartment my Grandparents came down, Heather’s parents, a family friend, both my sisters and parents were there and Heathers sister, sisters friend and Uncle so you can say we had a very full house. A couple of my friends and Ryan were there too. But it was really great to see everyone and all in all was a very relaxing and fun weekend.

This all happened Friday 13th night on Thursday Heather, Rachel, Tiffany, two of Rachel’s friends, and I went to a Drag show at the college it was put on by the drama department and was really really good. Like I have never been to a drag show before but it was really fun and funny the drama teacher I think was the best he is like a 48 year old heavy set man and I swear is one of the funniest men on earth. They also had a professional drag person, sorry I don’t know there proper name not to sound ignorant or raciest or anything I just don’t know, anyway he/she was from Dimpsies(sp) the gay bar here in Spokane and was a very good performer very good at one time during his act a little 5 nothing girl went up to him to give him a dollar for the fundraiser they were doing and the Dimpsies performer kind of cornered her and stared dancing up on her and such she didn’t mind it was just very funny to watch a 6’6” with heals maybe 200pd man who was a very convincing women dance up on this tiny girl I died laughing. It was a really good show and really good cause I wish I could go every year.

Ok so I will be moving to the Tri-cities the 22-23rd so all this week I will be packing and getting everything ready to move thankfully I have moved several times before and know the drill so if you want to see me or hangout or something before I leave then e-mail me myspace me call me whatever. I can’t do anything Wednesday night or Saturday day or night though. So get me while you can……

Have a great summer everybody

Hamster out….