Fucking primal and maternal instincts

So I'm Having weird primal urges to reproduce i know it's no the right time and i really don't want anything like that coming out of me anytime soon. Plus i'm really happy as to where my relationship with Ryan is and feel that anything like that would fuck it over hard therefore leaving me as unhappy as a penguin is the desert. So fuck this kid shit, their cute as hell sometimes and love you know matter what but i'll get over it. I'll just spend my time and money spoiling my friend Chandra's kid anyone else have a little on they want me to spoil. Not in a wierd way....shit anyway you say it it sounds wrong.


I'm thinking all this will blow over when me and Ryan finally move in together. It's kind of like my mind trying to screw me over making me feel like i'm going no were trapped in my parents' house that i'm not a grown up becasue as of late i'm not supporting myself. Deep shit like that. Lets get something strat to all you blog readers out there i'm horribly pig headed and independent as hell. There for me living in my parents house for about a year has killed my mind making me seminally want to reproduce to make me feel more adult that would be what my heart is telling me, but thankfuly i have a big but good head on my shoulders. So i have decided to set out and write it all down therefore getting this insane idea of reproduction off of my fucking head. So that i can go back to my depression less thought force and life. But i swear to god if i dont have a kid by my 27th birthday i will end anyone and everyone. Fucking primal and maternal instincts.

And if any of you people, you know who you are, tell my boyfriend, who i'm hoping doesn't read this and overreact, i will end you and you know i can....

On another note completely i bring you this blog via my sisters laptop since mine burnt out on me and was sent to ther far off repair shop of the out of business Circuit City. No idea when i'm getting it back so.....


Pissed off for eternity


Hamster out....